Crazy Ride continues...

Remember I said on March 20th that this was going to be a crazy ride... 

Well yep it is. 

More crazy than I ever imagined.

But I guess that is how God works.

So here I am at the end of another lesson learned and humbled yet again.

A couple weeks ago I went to my Pastor Maria and told her that I was here and that I was willing to serve wherever she needed.  The only thing I asked is that I not  be in front.  I was more of a behind the scenes kind of person.  That I felt very comfortable there (with hearing the word comfortable I am sure that God was rubbing His hands together and was saying to Himself, " Oh Edith you have no idea what is coming.")

She smiled her big smile and said that she was happy to hear that and that she would let me know where she needed help.  I ended the conversation by saying that I know that God had placed me there and that I wasn't there to see what I could get out of it but what I could give.

Well a couple weeks later I thought that I still hadn't come out of my comfort zone and that I needed to start talking to other people.  How would I serve people best when I didn't take the time to know them?  Well it just so happened that on April 2nd there was a conference for women.  Well, I thought, what better way to get to know some of the women better.  So I went and I have to say that I loved the car rides more than I did the conference.  Not that the conference didn't touch my heart, but God used the women in the car to touch my heart in such a special way that did so much more than the conference did.

Well then that night I was praying and God spoke something to my heart that just touched me in a way that I will never be the same again.  

God:  Edith why are you putting limitations on me?

Me: I am not putting limitations on you.  I know you can do anything.

God:  Not true.  I told you to go to Christ Church of Victory and serve.

Me: Yes I know I went and told Pastor Maria that I was willing to help but my strength was not to be in front.  But that I was good at being behind the scenes so I would do what she needed.  I am not a good public speaker so I would not be very beneficial or effective in that area.

God:  You don't have to be good at something to serve, you just have to be willing.  I want to use your weaknesses and make them My strengths.  But you have to also understand that partial obedience is still disobedience.

Me: What?

God: You obeyed by saying you would serve.  I did not tell you only behind the scenes. I just told you to be willing to serve where needed.  You said you would only serve but only in certain areas, which limits what I can do through you.   That is not complete obedience.

Me:  Sorry God... again.

So I had to make things right.  When I had the chance I went to tell the Pastor what had happened the night before and that I was saying again that I was here to serve wherever she needed.  But that was not limited to where I felt comfortable.  How does she reply?  She says yes God taught me the same thing last night. And I want you to preach soon.

to be continued...