I have been an emotional wreck lately!
I mean I kind of feel a little crazy!
Well maybe a lot crazy...
When I say that everything lately has made me cry, I mean everything.
I have fought so many tears lately its ridiculous.
Here are just somethings lately that have made me cry.
A friend told me that I was like the sun. Bringing light to dark places.
Another friend gave me a hug,
Someone singing "You are my sunshine."
Someone singing "From this valley"
My dad gave me a hug.
My dad charged the battery for my car.
A drawing of a flower given to me by a student.
Just to name a few...
See what I mean, CRAZY!
So like always I started to think about it.
And I came to this conclusion.
I have been a wreck lately because there has been so much ugliness.
Many hurtful words said.
So much blame put on me
Lots of hurt,
BUT in the midst of all that there has been so much beauty that darkness tried to cover.
And I realize that I am so lucky.
I am so genuinely loved by many.
Not because I have done something spectacular, but just because.
I feel so unworthy, so undeserving.
And at the same time so blessed that I can say that because many can not.
In spite of my crappy situation, I am happy to be where I am.
Edith,
ReplyDeleteYou amaze me at how strong you are. You may not think so because you feel like your struggling at times, but you are an inspiration, for me. You help me stand stronger in the midst of family 'things' (if you will) and you also inspire me to continue to follow after God's will for myself. Showing me that God is speaking to you and guiding you makes me so happy and also makes me want to dig even deeper in my relationship with Him to see the doors open for my future.
So, keep crying your little eyes out if you need to, but just know that you are VERY loved, inspiring and appreciated, by me!
I love you tons and am so blessed to have you as a friend.
Love you.