Honest Moment Part 2

I asked myself an honest question the other day and was kind of surprised by my answer.

I asked myself, "Who am I living my life for?"

After taking an honest look at my life the answer was easy. 

I am living my life for God, my parents and grandparents.

And that is not a bad thing. 

But it is just not the best thing.

I can not live my life for these people and claim to be 100% living for Jesus.

Now I see what I need to change.  

I no longer have my grandparents here. 

So I need to not live for them, but change that to be inspired by them.

Which I am!  I had the most amazing grandparents. 

They were humble, giving, selfless, unconditionally loving and wise.

If I turn out to be half the people they were I am doing good.  

But God's plan for my life does not look like my grandparents life.

It is unique to me.

I am living in a house were I have one parent living for God.

That parent is inspiring to watch.

I learn so much just by watching them live their life on a daily basis.

But again my plan is not like theirs.

It is unique to me.

My other parent is not living for God.

I think they think they are, but in reality they are not.

I am not saying that to say hey look at me, I am.

Or to give them a bad name.

It just is what it is.

That is, however, where the problem in me begins.

I am constantly running into road blocks and pot holes because there is no harmony.

They are not living out the plan that God has laid out for them.

In trying to keep peace in the house we are all going outside of the plan of God, which is where I feel torn.

God's plan is more important always, but how do I live for God and still honor my parents?